Psalm 119

Personal Note:
Today I was studying various passages of Scripture about why it is important to study God's Word. I was especially drawn to the Psalm 119 passage. Along w/ 4 other ladies, I am beginning a study called, "Living By the Book, by Howard Hendricks - a basic tutorial of how to study the Bible for oneself.
Overview:
Over and over again the writer vows to walk in Your precepts, Your testimonies, Your ways, Your statutes, Your word - all names for the word of God. He acknowledges that when he obeys God's word that he is joyous because he knows he is pleasing to God. The Bible kept him from sinning, and it helped him to grow to spiritual maturity, and corrected him when he strayed from the right path that God had for him. He expresses thanks for the privilege of knowing what God wants him to know as seen in the Word of God.
Application:
Do I truly love God's Word? Do I long for it to sustain me? Or do I see how long I can put it off - always on my "to do list"  - but always allowing other things to take a higher priority? Why am I anxious and worried about things that are totally out of my control? I am focused on the problem, rather than the Problem Solver. I've read and know it to be true that God moves the hearts of kings - if that is so, then He can change my heart, and all those around me. Why do I allow myself to feel overwhelmed - that there is no hope? Perhaps it's hormonal or chemical or even hereditary, but I also know it is because of lack of complete faith that God is in control of ALL THINGS. If that were a reality in my life, why should I worry or fret. I am weak in this area because I have not committed God's Word to memory so that when these times of dark depression and worry overtake me, I can transform my mind from dark to His light. God's Word must be a priority in my life so that I can grow and be effective in all areas of my life, but most of all to drive away the overbearing dark cloud of depression that all too often comes over me.
I am especially aware of it because I am out from under it. I have a renewed energy, a desire to be involved rather than to hide or isolate myself. Things look better to me, my future doesn't seem to be so bleak. I pray that this time will last... How can I be anxious if God is in control?! Think on these things - think on His Word, meditate on what I've read day and night - especially in the night when sleep eludes me. God will not turn away from me, He is well aware of my pain. He has provided a way of escape if I will but take it - read the Word, study it - make it mine. Live by the Book!!