Philippians 1:12 - 18

Overview:
Paul reflects that his imprisonment has been a good thing because more people have had the opportunity to know Christ (whole imperial guard and all the rest). An added result is that it has created boldness in others to proclaim the gospel - implication being because they see Paul's boldness in speaking to his Roman guards, then surely what do they have to fear? Then he discusses men's motives for preaching the gospel - some do it with sincerity, while others do it to lord it over Paul. He uses words like: rivalry, envy, and to afflict me. But he muses that in either case the gospel message is getting out there, and he can rejoice in that.
Application:
I've read this lots of times before, but I just saw something that had previously escaped me. Paul is talking about fellow believers who are doing God's work with wrong motives. I've seen that first hand, and it has always angered and baffled me. How could the same Holy Spirit who resides in me and convicts me of my wrong motives, how can He not be convicting them? I think He is - has to be, but it shows that we can still do things for Christ - looking good to others, but still be sinning big time because of our wrong motives. And what's more, God may choose to bless them, inspite of their sin - a very hard concept for a very "black and white" kinda gal like me. What I need to take away from this is that it happens, but if ultimately Christ is proclaimed, and in that I rejoice. Yes, and I will rejoice. Have to admit I've got to work on the genuine rejoicing. That last phrase, "Yes, and I will rejoice" - seems to say it's a continual decision, a continual commitment to rejoice - inspite of my questions or concerns, and even when I'm "jealous" that they receive so much attention when I can see right through them.
Lord, help me with my critical spirit! I want to be discerning, but at the same time, I don't want to be sinning by grumbling and complaining because: "Here I am serving you the "right way," and so-in-so isn't, and You continue to bless them too?! What's up with that?!" (Putting it down in writing shows my sinful heart!) I need to continually remind myself, "Candy, who are you doing ____ for? If you are doing it for God, as Colossians reminds us, then God will reward you. If I'm doing it for man's approval, or what usually gets me - my own validation, then I may or may not get it, but  I need to know there is no reward from God, because I wasn't doing it for Him! Whew...most convicting!!!